Gaaaaaaahhhhh

11pm. 1am. 2am. 3am. 5am.
No, it has not been a good night! She has not even been upset or uncomfortable... just NOT tired. Beautiful big blue eyes wide open, all night. Good thing we are having no visitors today; I will be needing a catch-up sleep! We are having H's sister J over for a visit with her 3 kids tomorrow. That makes 9 house visits in 13 days; it's been a busy holiday season for us!
On Tuesday I'm going to drive. Hooray! I was at the doctors on Friday to check on my c-cut and it's all good so will be driving with no hesitation. Just going local to start with. On Tuesday I plan to first drop M off at kindy (which will take a while since everyone is going to want to meet little J) and then take her to the shops for an aimless wander and a fancy coffee type of thing. Can't wait! It's like looking forward to freedom, ha ha.
Doctor told me I can start swimming and cross-training next Thursday (when it's been 4 weeks) so that's very exciting news too. And he weighed little J and she was 4.1 kg so she's absolutely thriving on my milk. Hearing that (and getting lots of positive reinforcement from the doc) makes it much easier to deal with the sleep deprivation.
Either way, I refuse to feel sorry for myself about the sleep. Last time I did, and that was not right. Nah, I will be strong and happy and make life happen no matter how pooped I am! That's where the coffee comes in, he he.
Ah... big yawn... oh well :-)